Boy has it been like the best week ever! I had MLK day off work on Monday- so I was ecstatic for a three day weekend. The Universe gifted me two extra days, because it was too cold to go to school on Tuesday and Wednesday. I’ve been thoroughly enjoying this five day weekend- and taking advantage of the extra time.

I started to finally workout on Sunday! I’ve been alternating between the bike and treadmill, and already I feel better physically and mentally. My aim is to get up earlier tomorrrow and Friday and workout before work. If that doesn’t happen, I’ll have to do it after work. My overall attitude about the whole thing is no stress- and even if I do 10 minutes, I’ll count it.

I’m really hoping that getting my body moving will help some of these aches and pains. That’s been, okay. I’ve been taking a full dose of Motrin about 1-2 times per day. This is much better than the round the cock NSAIDS I was taking like all of 2022, and then some.

My weed abstinence is making me very happy. I don’t miss it. I feel sharper and smarter, and have more energy. Why the hell did I ever want to dull any of that anyway?

I’ve been thinking a lot about our shortcomings. For me, it’s my scattered thoughts, my monkey mind. I self medicated and tried ADHD meds. They worked, until they didn’t. Both required constant increases to obtain the same effect. It was a losing battle. The irony is that being substance free makes me realize that those “shortcomings” can be a superpower for me. It’s hard for me to explain, and I know enough to know that I’m not fully accessing how to make this a strength, yet. But I know, maybe just in my heart of hearts, that the way my brain works can benefit me in a lot of aspects of my life.

What other strengths do I have that my ego is subtly trying to squash? I think my intuition is one. I would never want to intentionally dull that- but it happened for way too many years.

So on Day 17, I’m celebrating- from the rooftops. It was a total whim that I decided to quit on January 1st. Nothing but good has come from it, and it’s allowed me to get excited about my life again 🩷